Ding! Round 2 is next...

I knew it was coming.

Our second ever scheduled all-day clinic at Children's Hospital has been scheduled. This is a fairly long dose of reality where we see various specialists over the course of the day. It's all grouped together to be convinient - we don't have 6 separate visits to make - but it does cause reality to come and hit home rather hard. It's hard to ignore a medical condition when you spend all day in the hospital.

I really don't know what to expect. I don't know whether there are decisions to be made, or whether this is just a high-powered checkup. I'm hoping for some news from the biopsy last year - but I'm not sure what. It shouldn't, in my mind, take a year to get biopsy results. I don't know whether this means it was "as expected" or if they have been lost, or if there is something unusual they can't figure out. The defense mechanism I have of ignoring it and hoping it will go away has prevented me from asking to loudly.

I guess this means that I will be a bit emotionally on edge for the next couple of weeks. I probably won't even notice it is happening - so please bear with me.

I'm also really struggling with the discipline of blogging. I have found it to be very useful to work things through in my mind, but my number of entries is dropping off. I suspect it is a matter of ignoring the problem. If there's no Doug issues, then there's no reason to blog - right? So, if I don't blog, then Doug is perfectly healthy. I wish it worked that way.